one year

I haven't spoken to you in a year and it gets harder every day.  I've been sick for the past couple days and I miss you now more than ever.  I remember how you used to take care of me and nurse me back to health.  Even go so far as to sleep in the bed with me when I had the flu to make sure I didn't stop breathing in the middle of the night.  J asked me what was wrong and I just started crying.  What can I say? A girl wants her Mommy when she's sick, even if she is 29 years old.  I will never forget those things you did for me.  I wish we could over come this but I don't see how we ever could.  It hurts not having you in my life.  I would do whatever it takes but it seems like whatever I do is not good enough.  Why do I always have to be the one to compromise?  I will say I'm sorry, all you have to do is pick up the phone.  Please let's not let it be another year before we speak. 

The Crud

I have a cold.  This wouldn't normally be anything to blog about but I have asthma which makes getting a cold that much worse.  Jay hasn't gotten it yet, I'm glad but it kinda ticks me off.  He never gets sick. 

I've had a lot of time to think which isn't a good thing.  I haven't even wanted to knit.  I was working on my first Malabrigo project but frogged it.  I found some errors at the cast on/ beginning, I had been working on it for about a week and I really do HATE to frog something.  But I would have never worn it if i had left it the way it was.  Cold medicine took the edge off having to frog a week's worth of knitting.  Hopefully I can get over this cold before Thanksgiving, so I can go visit my family.  I didn't see them last year and if I miss this year I will not be happy!  J did cook last year but it's not the same.  He always works on Thanksgiving and doesn't have any family here.  I feel guilty for even thinking about going to see my family while he has to work, and has no one to celebrate with. 

Also I am working black Friday and NOT looking forward to it at all.  We stay open half an hour later than usual but I will still be recovering from this cold.  It's a rather nasty cold, a lot of chest congestion and I have totally lost my voice.  I don't know how well that will go at work because I talk to customers and I don't want to spread germs. 

29

Had an alright birthday.  Went to The Prickly Pear for dinner (mexican fine dining), and then saw Megamind in 3D.  I'm still feeling a little motion sick from the movie but all in all it was better than I expected.  Thanks to Jay.  I can always count on him to be there when the chips are down.

But it hurts that the person that gave birth to me didn't even call me or send me a card.  Jay's family wished me a happy birthday before my own family did.  29, it feels older than it sounds.

moebius

I've never knitted a moebius or worn a moebius.  This was a very BORING knit.  I just finished this last night and just in time too because it's starting to cool off here.  61 degrees today.  I know that's not very cold but compared to our 100 plus degree summer days it's rather chilly.

I will find my voice

I will not let you run me out of every yarn store in North Carolina.  You are not the boss of me and I will not let you shut me out anymore.  You know who you are.  Stop acting like you're innocent because you know what you've done.  You continue to put people down and run people out, one of these days I will get enough nerve to stand up to you. You choose the weak people and single the out like a lion preys on a gazelle.  Never again.


You give knitting a bad name.  You're the reason people think all knitters are crazy cat ladies that sit at home alone in their moo moo's and curlers. You're nothing but trouble and I suggest you stay out of my sight.

Shame on you. You need to act your age and not your shoe size.

*THUNK* - that was me jumping off my soap box.