easter weekend

i havent been going to church like i should. i probably wont go easter sunday but i am going to my cousin's house to visit with her and her kids.

hard times are coming for a lot of people. i hope everyone makes the best decisons for themselves. i am no stranger to hard times but im just not strong enough to pick up and start over again. iit was just 5 years ago( has it really been that long) that i was doing the same thing. finding a job, finding a place to live. trying to do better for myself and look where it got me. it's like i've learned nothing from the last 5 years. 5 years ago i was beated, broken, battered, used and abused. how i ever got over that i'll never know. but i did. i made it on my own then and i can make it on my own now.

now that i'm off sugar and not emotionally eating. every little thing makes me cry. i know its just an adjustment period. i never thought losing weight would force me into dealing with my problems.