change

change is supposed to be good right?

i havent blogged in a long time. mostly because i didnt have much to say. until now.

my relationship has gone down the tubes. i saw it coming but damn if it doesnt suck. im going to have to relocate and find a job and i just dont have the energy to do it right now

also i've joined weight watchers and lost 11 lbs so far.  taking this step and making good decisions for myself is hard.  now that i'm not emotionally eating i am having to deal with my emotions on my own with out any coping skills.  its harder than i thought it would be but its a step in the right direction.  a step i had to make.  i'm losing weight for me and no one else.  to be healthier and feel better about myself.

thats all for now.  i have a lot more on my mind just dont know how i want to get it out.  not been knitting much lately.  i started the clapotis but havent had much time with looking for a job and a place to stay.